Even Told The Golden Daffodils (Film Thoughts: A Secret Love, Netflix)

baPTM2MrYoju3P5NKLMgKdOt8sDRyan Murphy, again, produced the new documentary ‘A Secret Love’ on Netflix and just like the earlier ‘Circus of Books,’ it is wonderful and a testament to power of gay love, and well, any kind of love. The film, directed by Chris Bolan was supposed to debut at SXSW Film festival in Texas, but that shuttered after the pandemic. It is about a couple, Pat and Terry, who meet in the 40s, and, at the start of the film, had been together for almost 66 years.  They tell their love story, with Pat being on of the first female baseball players in the All American Teams, which was the basis for the Penny Marshall Movie ‘A League Of Their Own.’ For decades, they have made their home in the Chicago area, and now have to face obstacles from aging – Pat has been experiencing tremors, and their home has started to be an unsafe place for both of them. Terry is resistant at first, unable to let go of the life they have shared together there. This seems like a simple story, and it is, as we see their struggle as they grow old together – and finally able to marry. The last fifteen minutes of the film is heartbreaking, as we see them finally move to an assisted facility, and then get married. ‘Love is love’ is not just a saying, this film is the embodiment of it. Don’t proceed to watch without tissues.

Circus Acts (Film Thoughts: Circus of Books)

12c27d9dbbf230b37a49df22ff197eeeRachel Mason directed the Netflix documentary ‘Circus of Books,’ about the popular porn bookstore in Los Angeles. Tt turns out, she has a personal connection to the subject. Her parents, Barry and Karen Mason, were the proprietors of the one-time largest distributor of gay porn in the country. In this moving and engrossing documentary, she explores the beginning (and eventual ending) of the family business. Who would have thought that a nice Jewish couple were the owners? Barry answered Larry Flynt’s newspaper ad looking for secondary distributors for his Blueboy Magazine, and before they knew it, they were the owners of Book Circus in West Hollywood, taking over from its troubled business owners. And we see the business grow (eventually expanding to Silverlake and Sherman Oaks) But of course, the bookstore had other significance in the gay community – it was a place where gay people can interact with other gays, a haven where they can feel that they were not alone in the world. The back alley, dubbed Vaseline Alley, was a huge cruising spot as well. Porn was huge in the 80s and we see the couple move to production, eventually producing Matt Sterling productions fo Jeff Stryker films.

But there’s a deep personal story to the documentary as well. When their kids were growing up, they were very tight-lipped about the business, as they didn’t want to be a distraction for their kids growing up. Karen is pretty religious, and that dichotomy is explored here as well. They are a very sensitive couple, and some of the most touching scenes are when Barry would take about friends and colleagues that passed during the AIDS epidemic. And wouldn’t you know it, but they also have two queer children, and we see Karen go through hardship in accepting them, to being proud PFLAG members.

In a lot of ways, the book store is a perfect backdrop for how gay life has changed over the years, and with the internet moving content to online, there was no choice but to eventually close the store – we see the bittersweet ending at the end of the documentary. There is a silver lining, though – Chi Chi Laroue has rented the space and transformed it to ChiChi’s Circus, now a gallery/store space, still for queer content.


The Eyes Versus The Heart (Television Thoughts: Love Is Blind S01 E 01 – E 04, Netflix)

p17821116_b_v13_aaWhat does the statement ‘love is blind’ really mean, because for me it has a lot of connotations. But for the sake of the new Netflix reality show “Love Is Blind,” this is what it connotes: a bunch of strangers are housed in some warehouse in Atlanta, and they date in pods, hearing only each other voices. When a match is set, the guy  proposes to the girl, and not until then that they meet in person. Then they are whisked off to a resort to Cancun, where they adjust to the ‘physical’ stage of their relationship. I am only up to Episode 4 of the series, and one couple has already disintegrated in Mexico.

So what do I think? Well, I am normally not a fan of reality dating shows (I don’t get the appeal of ‘The Bachelor’ or its female counterpart) maybe because I am more of the hopeless romantic kind – I can be conservative that way. I found this series well-edited. They stop the first episode at a spot where you instantly want to find out what happens next so you cannot help but keep on watching. It hasn’t been appointment television for me just yet (I feel like an episode a night is enough) but I gotta admit I am interested enough to keep on watching, and probably finish the first season. I am amazed that there are five couples engaged by now, though it doesn’t surprise me one couple has separated by the first night in Mexico – a bisexual guy revealed his orientation and well, you can just imagine what happens next (juicy!) There’s a lot of drama, but it doesn’t feel as exploitative (though it is) because of the sleek production.

Guess Who’s Next (Television Thoughts, Next In Line, Season 1 Finale)

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Still In Love (Movie Thoughts: To All The Boys P.S. I Still Love You)

1C_PS-I-Still-Love-You-608x900And here we are, on Valentine’s Day with the ultimate of all ultimates when it comes to romantic movies (in these times, anyway) – Netflix’s ‘To All The Boys P.S. I Love You,’ which is a mouthfu-ltitled sequel to the smash hit ‘To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before.’  I loved the first movie, and have been eagerly awaiting this one, and of course, why not see it on Valentine’s Day? (Remember when we used to have old-fashioned old-school romantic movies on this day?)

So the verdict? This one is a less successful film than its predecessor – it meanders before settling into a predictable love triangle story line. But yes, it still works, thanks mainly to the cast. Lana Condor (Lara jean) and Noah Centineo (Peter Kavinsky) are so charming separately and together that it hardly matters. (Is it just me or does Centineo read older this time around) that you have no choice but to just go along with them for the ride. They make such a cute couple and you totally believe them, their pairing so effortless.

When the film offers distraction it kind of stalls a bit. I never believed John Wesley McClaren (Jordan Rivers) as a threat, though I loved Holland Taylor’s sassy turn as an older lady where Lara volunteers.

What matters most is how I connected with these characters. I don’t think there were any surprises here but still I was a weepy mess by the end of the film. For me, this brought Valentine’s Day messaging front and center, just the way I wanted it.

There She Is (Movie Thoughts: Miss Americana)

05yud4gp81b41I was never a huge fan of Taylor Swift, though, of course, she has been in my peripheral. I had her records of course (back when I used to collect them as physical pieces) and her songs are on my playlists, but I never stop and truly listen. But after watching ‘Miss Americana,’ I have a new found respect for her. I admit I am guilty of sometimes dismissing her, and I often cite the alleged Quincy Jones quote that he told her ‘a hook doesn’t make a song’ (I don’t know if that is an authetic quote, to be honest) But we see a glimpse of Swift in this documentary that is of a woman coming into her own, and I admire this woman. I think my doubt of her stems that she is from country music, and a lot of those folks seem to be conservative and anti-gay but here she shows herself to be not just a champion of equal right, but a fierce and loyal one. (“How can I go on stage and shout ‘Happy Pride Month’if I don’t take a stand) And when she sees the how horrible Republican candidate Marsha Blackburn is in her home state of Tennessee, she is implored to take a stand on her Instagram addressing her twelve million followers – against her management team, who tells her to not do it. You gotta give her props for that.

Still, you can tell she decides what she wants to share. Where is this ‘squad’ of friends that she reportedly has? And we really do not see this young man who she is supposedly in love with. To me, I am not heartbroken about not seeing those things but I bet her loyal fans are. But no mistake, this was an engrossing documentary that gave me a glimpse of a woman I can support, and you know what? It made me play and appreciate her new album, ‘Lover.’

Who’s Next In Line? (Television Thoughts: Next In Fashion S01 E01-E02, Netflix)

5BZTA5N2I4NjAtMG@._V1_Since I have been watching the new season of ‘Project Runway,’ I was inspired to check out the similar show on Netflix, called ‘Next In Fashion.’  And what do I think? I still think PR is the gold standard when it comes to fashion designer competition shows, but something about Karlie Kloss being a Trump supporter is really leaving a sour note for me, so I am really trying to get into ‘Next In Fashion.’ (I am eagerly awaiting the Amazon Prime show with Heidi Klum and Tim Gunn) After watching the first episode of this, though, I almost gave up. First, I am not too fond of Tan France, the host of the show, and he is given too many hats here – he is also kind of a mentor and a judge. Alexa Chung shares the same duties as he and she is kind of cute, and sure, peppier than Heidi and Karlie. I did notice that the slate of contestants for this show is rangier – they come from mostly all over the world as oppose to more USA-centric of PR. And the conflict here is much more muted – the contestants are broken down to teams of two people and there’s no rhyme or reason to the teaming: some of them know each other previously and some do not, so it doesn’t seem like that was done to create ‘conflict.’  And we really don’t get to know much about the contestants – we get plunged into the contest right away.  The pacing of the show is weird. I don’t know why, but I almost felt it was slower. But by the second episode, though, I got used to the groove, and marveled at the clothes. While I don’t think the talent has been diluted on all these shows now, I do think some of the clothes are very nice. So I will keep on watching – I read that by the fourth episode it gets much more interesting.

Seconds To Tears (Film thoughts: 37 Seconds)

37-Seconds-PosterWell, look at me. I was just bemoaning that there isn’t much to see nowadays, and we are in the doldrums of movie releases, when I see a film that is so good that it has invigorated my interest in seeing more films. Hikari’s ’37 Seconds’ is now streaming on Netflix and I cannot think of a better film to watch right this very minute.

The film is about Yuma (Mei Kayama) who is twenty three years old, and is suffering from cerebral palsy. She is mostly confined in a wheelchair, but she can use her upper body, and is in fact working as a manga illustrator, blind ghosting her cousin’s content. She knows her limitations in life, but yearns for more, and this movie explores her journey, and is a unique coming-of-age film, one that humanizes disabled people.

Yuma is stifled by her overbearing and overprotective mom, and the interesting dynamic when it seems like the mother feels emotionally dependent in her child. When Yuma tries to hawk her art to an adult manga company, she is told that her work is impressive, except for the sex scenes, which do not feel authentic. This sets off Yuma in an exploratory journey, which leads her to an experience that not only makes her know herself better, but physically takes her to Thailand.

The film takes a slower pace than usual so you have to be a little patient with it, but when ti does get moving, you will feel instantly engrossed. This is a frank film with adult themes, but it never felt salacious. You won’t be able to resist identifying with Yuma, and when she gets her revelation in the end, I was solely with her, copious tears and all.  This is an emotional film that will get you to feel, and feel you must.

You Found Love At A Hopeless Place (Television Thoughts: A Fresh Start, You S02 E01, Netflix)

screen_realm_77103724_548043389151671_3045263192257241630_n-696x870‘You,’ is back, and it’s now on Netflix. Or I guess the first season was also on Netflix, where it garnered such a huge following. In the beginning of the first episode of the second season, we see that Joe has moved to Los Angeles, and we wonder why when you know he is probably one of those New Yorkers who loathe LA, and everything it stands for. We realize that of course, he moved there because it is the last place where one expects him to be. Sure enough, he is hiding. From Candace, the one he loves, or the one he loved too much and now is out to torture him by letting him know she is alive, even though he attempted to kill her. So he is disavowing love now – it only brings him trouble, we listen to him in his internal monologue. Of course, we knew he would never , could never resist love – he lives and kills for it (like, literally) and he cute-meets a girl at the supermarket, and her name is Love (like, literally)  And then as the episode ends we find out that nothing in his new life is accidental, that is all pre-planned as only Joe can, and there are no secrets here, and everything is a secret.

Again I am hooked. I was hooked watching the first season and it looks like I will be hooked again watching every episode of the second season. And the good thing? I can binge watch it, and I can’t wait to do it.

It’s Just Another Sad Love Song (Television Thoughts: Soundtrack, Netflix)

1MV5BMDIyMDI2OGQtY2JmZi00YI was drawn to see the new Netflix series ‘Soundtrack’ because it was created by Joshua Safran, who was an executive producer of Smash. And just like the title suggests, ‘Soundtrack’ has music in the show. I didn’t know to what extent it was, and then I found out – the music here is lipsynched by the actors. And they are pop songs shoehorned into the situation. And you know what? It took just a bit of getting used to, but I didn’t mind it. I wish I was more acquainted by some of the songs, to be honest, but that’s just because I am less in tune with modern pop music.

However, one thing about the series kind of turned me off. There’s this ‘twist’ at the end. And it is a little bit of a rip off from the premise of NBC’s ‘This Is Us.’ So is this show also going to be grief porn just like that? I watched the first episode, and I had to pause for a bit. I don’t know if I want to invest myself in this show now.